My little fish … A simple fish so inconspicuous and calm that I didn’t even notice him. He approached me. I admired his courage; rarely had anyone approached me so unsettled. A strange fish, somehow different. I’ve never been interested in fish. I found them boring. I let him swim around me. He followed me almost penetratively. My interest was piqued. So stubborn, yet so tender the little fish. He really tried to impress me and he did it. He made me laugh with his awkward manner. Weightlessly so familiar in the water, we both drifted away until he swam away and I couldn’t catch him anymore and he was no longer reachable for me.
You ruined everything!!! (Angry)
Emma (my inner voice): I told you from the start that sooner or later he would swim away. First they ensnare you and then they are gone. Better early than late.
He was so beautiful inside and out … very different from all the sweets I had before and definitely not that unhealthy. So calm in contrast to me. I felt good and never have I trusted someone so quickly.
Emma: I don’t know what got into you either. Usually I want to impress and with the fish it wasn’t necessary.
On the contrary, he saw me from a bad side and still liked me, but you couldn’t understand that.
Emma: I told you there was something wrong with the fish. That’s not normal.
Why not ? Maybe he really liked us. It fitted so well, we were on the same wavelength.
Emma: Yes, of course. Where was the fish again? Exactly not there anymore.
I scared him because you told me he’d swim away soon and that it would hurt and that it couldn’t be that he liked us. You made me totally insecure and scared.
Emma: You’d rather swim away, before he does. You always with your fear and self-protection. Why enjoy something?
Emma: why ??? after we swam away, we swam to him again and then he swam away and you swam after him a while like a complete idiot, if he had wanted us, then he would not have swum away, but stayed.
We hurt him … I would like to continue swimming afterwards, not give up …
Emma: and apologized and explained. He is gone. The interest couldn’t have been that great and with his ignorance he hurt us twice. We don’t deserve that. Yes, because you can’t let go and if he had wanted us, then he would not have swum away, but stayed. If he doesn’t swim slower and gives you a chance to catch up with him?
I thought he was different …
Emma: Do you always think … laughing again and again in the circular saw …
The circular saw came too early …
Wonderland 